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Let's play a little catch up and start off with last Friday. 

Will's parents came in early last Friday morning and we seemd to have hit the ground running. 

The day before we discovered that our roof was leaking from all the snow melting off. We immediately became quite overwhelmed with our long list of to-dos and the fact that things keep getting added to it. This has been an ongoing struggle for us, trying to figure out how to get everything done when it is just the two of us. So I made sure that Will did not hesitate to ask his parents for help when they came into town. They joked that all we did was work them on their vacation, but I think it was a really good time for Will and his dad to bond over house projects.

So Friday we mostly took it easy. We tried to get Madison to nap, but she was too excited about having visitors to adore her. We went to brunch, played at the park, grilled burgers, took our first trip to a quilt store, all fun things. Then on Saturday, we started off the day by going to a sort of upscale flea market I have been wanting to go to since last summer. It was just me and Beverly and our mission was to find a dresser to put in our room. I had been on the look out for a free one I could paint myself, but I had not had any luck. So the frugal side of me fought hard, but decided it would be better for me to just buy one. 

 All it needs now is an orange changing pad to go on top. I already washed the few gender neutral clothes we have and put them away. I may be driving myself crazy trying to make sure everything is perfect before baby comes, even though I had told myself non of that matters....

Then we all ate a late breakfast at a place that Will's sister works at. All the while, Will and his dad spent all morning repairing our gutters so the water would drain more effectively. After breakfast we headed back out to the quilt store so Beverly could look at the fabric again. During this time Will and his dad replaced our back window that we cracked when we locked our keys inside of the house a couple of weeks ago. We then all ate dinner together and Madison was stealing the show by giving everyone kisses, I think she loved the attention.

Sunday, was our find a twin mattress for Madison day. Beverly thought it would be a good idea if we went ahead and set up a "big girl" bed for her, so she could get used to the idea before baby comes. We decided upon ikea. We got there shortly after it opened and made it out two hours later. Not only did she buy her a bed, but also a play kitchen for her upcoming birthday/we still love you present when the new baby comes.

Sunday was also their last day here, and we were sad to see them leave. We felt so blessed with all their help, I feel much less overwhelmed with all our to-dos. We love where we live, but I still have this huge tug in my heart to have family close by.

This week started off with me determined to get everything even more perfect for baby. Madison's big girl room assembled. Everything organized. Everything cleaned. Well, I had to take a few moments and realize what I was doing. I just get so focused on something, I forget what is really important. I think Will would probably agree I had lost my mind when I was demanding he assemble her bed at 7 pm Tuesday night and rearrange her room at 7 am the next morning. I still have a few more things I want to make sure are just perfect for baby, but the issue is not the items on my to-do list, but why do I feel I have t get them done. I think the answer is that I am getting pretty nervous about welcoming another child and if I can get everything perfect before their arrival, then maybe we can handle having two kids. But the reality is, nothing is perfect, I can not control everything. Whether or not we can handle two kids is not based on if our house is organized and Madison is sleeping through the night. Anyway, thats a bit of a tangent, but I get so crazy sometimes.

Like i said, I am crazy. So all day on Tuesday I painted her bed frame white and planted some plants in our yard. Here is Madison helping me plant...

 When I woke up on Wednesday, I was hurting. I knew I had done too much, but couldn't seem to stop myself. Now I am still taking it easy because my abs feel like they might bust.

Back to the bed... On wednesday the bed was totally set up, and we brought Madison into to see it. She ran away crying and would not even get on it. To say, I was a bit discouraged, would be an under statement. I really did not have expectations she would sleep in the bed now, but I thought she would at least want to play on it. Well, as the day progressed she warmed up to it. We took a long nap together on the bed and I could tell she was beginning to feel comfortable with it. When bed time rolled around, she wanted to sleep in the bed. So I let her. She slept pretty soundly until 7 this morning. I decided to try it out for nap time today and she got out once, but then passed out shortly after I put her back in bed. I still can not believe she is sleeping in a twin bed and who knows how she will handle sleeping in it in the future, but I am thankful she is warming up to the idea of it.

I am beginning to get really emotional, silly last few weeks of pregnancy, and the thought of her world being rocked makes me sad. I just can not stand the thought that she thinks we love her less or that she is being replaced when the baby comes. I know that these are silly fears, but the reality of another kid is hitting hard, especially with the big bed.

 That is about all our week has consisted of. Me being an emotional, nesting, pregnant person. Will trying not to call me out on my craziness. And our first baby growing up much too fast. I am entering into the world that is totally foggy by my hormones and past experience shows it doesn't really lift until baby is about 3 months old. I hope I can make it through with out being totally overcome by them. Here is to six (almost five) more weeks of baking a baby.

 Its been raining here (which I realized, I like a lot more than snow), so this has been my outfit of choice, leggings, with a too-short shirt.

 

Pushing my two babies for a quick stroll. Everyone stares at the empty seat next to Madison.